Trying so hard!
by Ocdismylife
I am trying so hard to let my intrusive thoughts just stay there and not analyse them. It is sooo hard. I feel like al my energy is used for this. I have thought alot about what I worry about, the fact that sometimes a child can pop up in my thoughts during sexual activity and I do not know how I can tell if that thought turns me on or not. I just have to tell myself a normal person who would experiance this would be like whatever and not think about it again.
Thats what I am trying to work on…I am planning on going out tonight for a drink just to get my mind of things ❤
ocdismylife 
Oh yes…I have been there. The more you fight them, the more resistant they become. It took awhile to accept. Sometimes, I still have a hard time. But, they are just thoughts and one psychiatrist jokingly said you are too big and strong to let these little bastards to get you down.
I just feel so…sick you know. I feel guilty for not knowing and imagen when I get a boyfriend I need to be honest with him and tell him this and then he will think im some sicko
Yea, just take care of yourself and everything has a way of working out.